For me, Nichiren Buddhism has proved to be the missing link that has enabled me to begin to fully apply what I’ve learned over the past few years from my holistic health specialist, Cindy Dillon. Holistic health involves fully synthesizing your mind, body, spirit, and emotions, and understanding that we need to create harmony on all four levels to be truly healthy. Adding to this the idea of being the master of my own karma (rather than an instrument of some larger being from whom I have passively received a destiny I must make the best of) has proved to be the glue I needed to really integrate these four levels into one cohesive system.
Through my synergy of holistic health and Buddhism, I’ve progressed more in the past year and a half than I had in the previous ten years of my life. This has been exhilarating, while at the same time it has come with a great deal of pain—emotionally and physically.
Late June 2016, I finally spoke with Cindy about the gradually-increasing amount of pain I’d been in since late April, which until then I’d just assumed was a prolonged response to this year’s stress. Cindy identified an imbalance in my gastrointestinal system, which was creating a lot of extra waste products my body was not handling properly, thus causing me pain and a general sense of not being well.
If I’d gone to a medical specialist, I would have been given diagnostic labels, put through expensive tests, and given pharmaceutical drugs that probably would have created new problems for me, in addition to the dehumanizing effect of treating my body like a malfunctioning machine. Cindy instead recommended a combination of Standard Process supplements, including nutritional and probiotic support. Since my body had been out of whack for so long, this did not provide a quick fix—Instead, my digestive system freaked out in a different direction, leaving me feeling worse in the short-term, as my body worked hard to create a new norm.
Instead of feeling disheartened and frustrated, I decided to treat this as a journey to wellness rather than as a struggle with illness. Imbalance in one system is echoed in the other three systems, so I knew that my journey is about far more than improving my physical health.
I’ve been diving deep into my soul-depths and my own karmic storehouse in my past few posts, and I’ve decided to continue this momentum for a while. Through this process I have been gradually increasing my courage to talk about things I’ve always had difficulty sharing outside of one-on-one conversations, and even then often with much self-consciousness and unnecessary shame.
When we’re going through upsetting health challenges, it’s easy to feel like our issues are unique, and that people will misunderstand and judge us—leading many of us to suffer in silence. My intention is that by reading about how I’m confronting my old fears and shame regarding health on all four levels, you will learn something that can help you in confronting your own demons, whatever they are.
Image: "Blue Halflight Surfer" by Karla Joy Huber, 2007; Berol Prismacolor marker and Sharpie marker
~ Post revised December 12, 2018